Close My Eyes Tight

No, I had not heard from him.
She was asked that today. It was a strange question to come from the person who uttered it.
Mostly she figured that part of her life was left behind, especially by those who had to endure her breakdown of heart and soul.
Though when the question was asked she wondered why it was asked.
Had something been said? Was there conversation?
Here she went again spinning things into something from nothing. Making a big deal where there was nothing being made at all.
He knew where she was and could contact her if he desired.
Did she desire it?
Her little heart nodded in her chest.

Looking back was not something she could do anymore. She could not face being the one left behind. It touched things in her she wished to stay hidden.

So she said the only thing she could when she was asked if she was ok after time had passed.

"There are days where all I wish is that I could crawl into a cocoon, close my eyes tight and after the wind is done trying it's very best to knock me down from my branch, crawl back out as something so much more than I ever was before." She knew her eyes still betrayed her deep sadness but she just could not hide.
"More in a sense where I was the one that was desired."

Her gaze drifted out of the window of the restaurant watching life fly by while she inched her way forward.