Can't Have....

Her eyes caught his as he walked past her and she smiled but ducked her head and eyes away.
He could not see what she knew was shining in her own eyes. Desire. Adoration.
That would not do. She would look the fool.
She is a fool.
A foolish thing that keeps reaching for the stars to only get burned.

She sat down and stared at her computer and a quite came to mind:

Sometimes someone comes into your life that changes everything.
Raises the standards, makes you laugh and makes you feel like you.
There is something about him that you can't put into words and even though you're not with him, you don't want to let him go.

But she has to let him go.
She needs to step back and not care what he does or who he talks to.
She needs to stop the day dreams of him and her together having the time of their lives.
She needs to stop reaching for those stars because this star is beyond her reach.
If she keeps reaching she will fall into the black abyss of pain as she has in the past.
That will not do for it would break her completely.
Her heart is just too damaged to survive another back turning on her.

For now smile for everyone. Act as if you are fine.
Smile for him. Support him in his life, his loves and his endeavors.

Hide the pain. It will pass.

Eventually.