A glance to her phone and nothing yet again. Her heart sank into the ground and she let out a loud sigh of pain. She hated his silences, hated how he pulled away just when they got closer. She had an idea of why he did such things, it was protection but he knew he did not have to protect himself from her. She understood his position, understood what he needed and what she needed was his friendship. Being with him was wonderful. She felt accepted and listened to. They clicked so easily and it had been that way from the very first moment they met. A distinct attachment to one another and they became fast friends.
She adored his smile. Adored the way he teased. Wished there was more between them and she felt he did to but they had come to the conclusion such a union would not be wise.
This last time they had spent time together something shifted within them and deep realizations had come out.
She hoped something would blossom and as it started to he shut her off.
It hurt to be ignored by someone you cared so much for. He was a part of her and that would never change. They were bound by something beyond their understanding. It was scary, yes, but if....only but if.
She sighed again and looked at her phone. Should she call him? Should she email him?
Something inside her shifted and she feared she would lose him forever. She seemed desperate and while she was inside, she did not need to tell him this.
Goddess, she missed him so very much. She wanted to be in his arms again, smoothing her hands over his back to chase away any bad memories or feelings. She wanted to be his buffer to the world and she wanted him to be her rock. The one person she could count on for anything.
The quote stood out to her and it made her heart ache.
What is truly yours would eventually be yours and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.
Tears streamed down her face as she lay down to try and forget someone she considered unforgettable.
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