He stood staring at the mountains and saw it was storming. The clouds were low and dark which only meant the snow was flying there. It had turned cold and he stood alone, watching another winter descend. It was in these moments after a solitary dinner in front of the television he realized he made a mistake. But what could you do now?
That thought made his heart clench and he gripped the counter tight in his hands. The pain he tried to drown, bury in another or run from never went far. It seemed to be right there ready to remind him with sharp stabs he truly fucked up.
Right now he was dysfunctional. Who he was with was worse. There were only good moments and he wanted more but would there ever be?
A soft sigh and he realize he let her go. He let the one he truly loved to stay in this dysfunctional mess.
His gaze drifted back to the mountains and he whispered sadly.
"Why did you let her go? That girl was perfect for you and you were too stupid to realize that. She loved you so much, she would do anything for you. But for you it was easier to just push her away." he took a deep breath and closed his eyes feeling the sorrow well up inside.
He whispered again.
"Why is it so hard to let her inside? She's worth it. She's not like other girls. One day you'll wake up and you'll realize that she was worth the fight. But you won't be able to change anything because you never gave her a reason to stay."
He stood there, silently gripping the counter with his head down as tears fell to the floor.
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