Out of Control

Realizations come in a flash and then you can't breathe as the thought settles in. Why should it matter, you ask yourself. Then you stare out the window seeing nothing but the sad images in your mind.
She sighed and turned away from the window, from her thoughts that have been plaguing her all day.
It seemed that he is on her mind at all times and she feels like a total fool for even caring. He walked out of her life without a word and it cut her to her soul. The only thing she could think of was she did something wrong as usual. Patience was something he lacked.
Being single would not be an issue. She was pretty. She had a good job. She had her own condo. She was self sufficient with her cat. Yeah, she did not need him. Fuck him.

A frown creased her brow and she decided her day was done. She needed to go on home and figure out what she was going to do next.

"Sky, come on let's go out." Cammy yelled to her upstairs and she shook her head and yelled back.
"I do not want to go out"

"You are not going to sit here on a Saturday night and moon over that fool anymore. He dumped you so let's go find some hotties and have some fun." Cammy yelled again from the bottom of the stairs.

Sky stood staring at herself in the mirror. She had on her best club outfit of tight jeans, low cut shirt and sky high boots but she felt flat. Her eyes looked flat because she felt as if he stole that from her when he left. A soft sigh escaped her as she knew she was not some awful person. She had lovely green eyes and great dark hair.

"Oh fuck it." she whispered to herself. "Pull yourself together girl."
She turned from the mirror and walked downstairs.

What seemed like five minutes they were walking into the club. She had not been out like this in a while and she was looking forward to just having a few drinks, dancing some and then going home. She decided she would act like she was 'man hunting' as her best friend Cammy would put it but she would not put any effort into it at all. She was not interested in anyone right now. Her heart ached with the loss.

They located a table settled in and ordered their drinks.

"You know you look great." Cammy said eyeing her suspiciously. She touched her own curly black hair automatically. The girl really knew where every curl was on her head. It was astounding how she could dance all night, not sweat and look like hell. She looked as beautiful at the end of the night as she did at the start.
"Thanks Cammy." she said with a smile

"Fuck him." Cammy said with a tilt to her head. "I know it's hard. I know you love the boy but he left you. You cannot let him get you down. He has issues."

She nodded and then sipped her beer.
"I know he has issues. We all have them. I tried to understand. I tried to jut be supportive but I guess I just not what he wanted anymore."

"Again, fuck him and what he wants. You are an amazing girl and he knew it. He just could handle awesome." Cammy said with a flourish of her hands then paused with her eyes wide.
"Holy shit check out the eye candy."

Sky turned her head to see two men walking into the club. The blond had Cammy;s attention for sure. She adored blonds. This guy was tall, longer hair to his shoulders and very blue eyes. Cammy was drooling and she just shook her head. Her attention shifted to the other man and her breath stopped. He was gorgeous. Dark hair to his shoulders, worn loose with a small lock hanging over his forehead and beautiful green eyes. They were both dressed nicely in jeans, button down shirts and boots but the dark haired man seemed to be a little more present. He seemed to fill his space in the room with authority and for some reason that had her attention riveted to him. She was sure that every other woman in the club was taking their inventory as well. This would be interesting.

Her gaze slid over the dark hair touching his shoulders and she wondered if it was as silky as it looked. His dark blue shirt strained over his shoulders showing he did have a nice body and he seemed, what, six feet tall. Absently she wondered if she were to bend over and he was behind her and she wore her boots would he be able to...

"Hi/" the dark haired man said with a laugh in his voice as he stood directly before her.
She blinked slowly twice then blushed. Oh my god she was just staring at the guy as he walked in, taking his inventory and thinking about him taking her from behind. Holy shit.

"Ah...hi..." she stammered and then sat mute with what she was sure was a dumb ass smile on her face.

"I noticed you and your....intense look and I had to come see what you were thinking about as you were looking at me." he said with a smile.

Her blush deepened and she really could not believe this was happening to her. Good god.

"Ah, well then that is what I was hoping for." he tilted his head then held out a hand. "My name is Alex. And you are?"

She knew her cheeks were flaming and she wondered where the hell her bravado went. She usually was a chatter box when it came to meeting people. She was not shy. She liked to talk and meet but this man, this demigod, took her breath away. He banished all coherent thought with one sultry smile. Was it wrong that the only thing she could think about was unbuttoning his shirt to see what his chest felt like, tasted like?

Placing her hand in his she smiled. "Hi Alex...I am Sky."
The moment her skin touched his she let out a soft. "Oh my"
Then she noticed his gorgeous green eyes widen ever so slightly then he lifted her hand to his lips where he pressed a kiss to her knuckles. That green gaze of his never left her own and she felt something inside her melt into a liquid fire.

"Tell me Sky. Are you adventurous?" he asked as he released her hand.

She was starting to gain her thoughts back into a coherent line and she lifted her chin.
"Yes, I think I am."

"Good. Do you want to go on an adventure?"

"Maybe."

"Well let's find out." Alex said as he settled onto a stool next to her and grinned.

Over the next 2 hours she chatted with Alex about everything that came to mind. He was a lover of all things Star Trek like herself. Enjoyed riding horses. Loved to cook and garden. He was an architect and wrote magazine articles for trade publications. She was intrigued by his humor, his sense of wonder about life and his very down to earth attitude.
Cammy was getting along famously with her blond god who was named Eric.
The suggestion came at midnight that they go back to Alex's place to have more drinks and talk where things were not so crazy.
They all agreed and within a short time she was walking into the largest loft she had ever seen.
"This is the top floor of the warehouse below isn't it?" She turned to look at Alex.

"Yes it is. I can roller skate in here." He grinned and tossed his keys into a brass bowl that sat on a table near the door.

"Oh I would love to roller skate in here." She looked around with wide eyes and he laughed next to her ear. Before she could even process that he had slipped up behind her his hands were on her arms and he was sliding them down turning her towards him.
She knew she needed to kiss him. She needed to taste him. She knew this in her soul because something was happening here. Some chemical reaction that was stealing her breath away and making her body tremble with need.
Her gaze met his and she decided it was time to finally get what she wanted. She was tired of waiting on men to make up their mind and she waited for them. This time she would take this piece of heaven and revel in it all night long.

Her fingertips slid along his jawline. So strong and sensual at the same time. Eyes locked to his she could see he was feeling the same thing she was. His breath was shallow. His pupils dilated and a look of pure need was in those green depths. The pad of her thumb slid over his lips and she whispered.
"So very lovely/"
Then she put both hands on his cheeks, bringing him down so she could press her lips to his.
The contact sent electric shocks over her body. His arms slid around her small form and soon she was crushed to his hard body and his tongue slid into her mouth.
His tongue stroked her until she was gasping for breath and she leaned back, breaking the kiss.

"Oh my....you are so very....electric." She said softly as her fingers slid into his hair and he moaned softly.
"I like that. Electric." he pressed her to the wall, trapping her there and she could feel every, hard inch of him. She squirmed against him, feeling his erection pressing to her stomach. She ached to wrap her hand around him, run her tongue over him.
"I want you little Sky. I want you on your knees begging me for more." He growled softly into her ear as his hand threaded into his hair. She then realized this was a dominant man and a thrill went through her.

"Yes....yes..." she gasped softly as his hand tightened in her hair sending little shivers of pain pleasure through her body.

"Good. Are you willing to do what I ask? I want you more than I have ever wanted anyone in my life little one. I want to make you mine. I know..." he nibbled her jaw line and said even softer. "...I know it is crazy as we just met but I have this need to possess you. Make you mine."

"I know....I feel it too." her voice was soft and reverent. She wanted this man to her core. She wanted to be filled by him. She wanted to worship him. She wanted to be that vanilla girl who crumpled to her knees ready to take what he dished out.

"Let us go to my room and let me take you?" he whispered into her ear and then pulled back. He turned on his heel and strode off to where she saw a hallway.
She needed to follow. She needed to be out of control for once in her life. She controlled everything. Every facet. She was tired of it. She wanted to be desired. Needed. Wanted. Desperately wanted and she wanted to relinquish control to a man who would take the responsibility seriously. He would, she knew he would. She did not know why she trusted him so much but she did and so with that thought she walked after him down the hallway.