Pretend

 

 

 

Pretending was something she excelled at.
She remembered as a kid she could pretend to be a horse and gallop down the driveway to her corral in the grass.
She could pretend to be a rock star drumming away in her garage as the crowd cheered her on.
She could pretend to not be scared when she really was.

But she could not hide the love in her eyes.

No, she found that out and it was terrible.

It's hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but it's even harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.

 

She had to be so careful when she hugged him. Not to do it too long. Too much.
Not to allow him to see her green gaze on his for he could see her soul. He said as much.

She did not want him to be worried that their friendship was in jeopardy.

But he said it. He said they were connected.

How could she not take that to heart, especially after all these years.

Damn. She jacked it all up again and now he was buried in his work.

Ignoring her once again till he got himself under control.

Or she did.

Or he finally left her forever.

Oh that could not happen? Could it?

The fear of that was something that lived within her. She could not lose him. He had been her constant for so many years. She would rather him her momentary shadow than gone from her light forever.
Please Goddess, do not let this happen.

A sign of what to do? Something small to latch on to?

 

A soft sigh escaped her and she sat down to think.