Sinking Heart

 Her gaze found him as it always was seeking to find him even when she really was afraid to see him. She almost did not recognize him and it made her sad, so sad to see him there without her. He seemed so cheerful, lost in his own little world that did not include her.

She never seemed to learn. That high she got from him made everything so much harder to move on. She could still remember his kisses. The way his dark eyes bored into her soul and the way he made her feel so gorgeous and alive.

Ducking her head she turned away and walked off in another direction, hiding her forlorn look as it would not do to allow him to see such a thing.

Not that he would even care. He walked away from her without even a backward glance.
She felt like such a failure at the one time she tried to love a new way. Tried to be that thing he treasured above all else.

Those thoughts made her soul ache.

Her heart sank into her shoes as she realized at last how much she wanted him. No matter what his past was, no matter what he had done. Which was not to say that she would ever let him know, but only that he moved her chemically more than anyone she had ever met, that all other men seemed to pale beside him.

She was shaken by her feelings for someone she barely knew.

At this point she figured she was nuts and decided to just bury her head in the sand, stay hidden away and see what the future would bring.
Right now her future looked lonely, sad and heartbreaking as her world was crumbling down around her.
Things were in motion that she had no idea how to handle and she would be on her own to face it alone.

Ah she was so overwhelmed that she felt like running away.

Far away.
Far Far Away.