At First Sight

Setting the cosmo down on the table she stared out the window, thoughts flitting across her face, almost as easy to read as if they were spoken aloud.
The vodka was starting to pleasantly affect her mood and she really needed the pick me up. She had an encounter today and she needed to not always go to fantasy land.

"Penny for your thoughts?" Her friend said as she sat across from her.

"These thoughts need at least a dollar." she said and looked at her friend with a small smile.

Without missing a beat her friend tossed a dollar on the table.
"Ok...spill it."

"Should I start removing clothing now? Put on some music." She laughed.

"No, I want to know who you are thinking about.....I hope not him." She said with a serious tone.

Of course her friend did not want her to think of him. She saw the pain she went through. But then she had to realize that pain was mostly self inflicted. what does one do when they fall so hard for someone and they run away. Goddess, she was a silly girl. But even through the silliness, even through the pain she did not regret one word, one touch, nor one kiss.
He was her high and she wanted more. But she had been denied even another touch. The thought of touching him made her fingertips tingle with need. She hated to watch him go about his days without a care in the world. She wanted to be his world.

"Oh come on....I can see you are thinking and thinking hard. Spill it." her friend said.

A soft sigh escaped her and she looked down into her half full glass.

"I believe in love at first sight but I will always believe that the people we love, we have loved before." she looked up at her friend and saw she was listening intently and she continued.
"Many, many, many times before and when we stumble through grace and circumstance and that brilliant illusion of choice to finally meet them again, we feel it faster each time through. The one glance that set life alight is two sets of two eyes staring through the layers of lifetimes and stolen glances and first kisses and hands held; the brace against the weight and unrelenting tide of waiting. I believe in love at first sight but am not burdened with the misconception that it's a first sight at all."

Her voice trailed off as she did truly feel that soul mates came together and put each other through trials of the heart and soul. We needed to pass the test each lifetime to gain access to the one we loved the most of all. The one we spent our ethereal time with.
She lifted her glass to drain the last of the cosmo.

"I will love him another time. I know it. Maybe in this life. Maybe in the next. But nothing hits a soul like an explosion unless it is their mate of all time." She said and looked at her friend.
She stared at her with a wonder on her face and then said softly.

"I believe you."

She nodded and wondered if she believed herself. She did not understand her attraction fully at all. It bothered her. It made her angry at times. She never reacted to anyone this way.
Goddess it made her feel weak. He made her feel like a untried school girl with her first crush.
All she had to go was think of the moment their lips touched and it was as if she was on fire again.
The best kisses ever.
She smiled and shook her head at herself.

Foolish girl. wanting someone who does not want you.

Sad.