Scared of You

   She froze, hand touching the door that would lead her outside and her gaze watched him walk back and forth. Great Goddess, he was so beautiful, she thought as he paced while talking on the phone. There was no way she could get around him, past him without him seeing her and that would not do. Her heart pounded and she got a little angry at herself.
She was such a foolish girl.
Yes a girl. She was not a woman with this man. Just some slip of a girl who melted when he was near.
All she could remember was his kisses, the way his eyes watched her with such need and desire and the feel of his skin against hers.
Her heart felt as if it would jump from her chest and fear took over.
This man intimidated her and she hated it.

She stepped back from the door and paused.
He could not see her for the doors and windows of this place were very dark.
She turned on her heel and walked to the other exit.
She felt like a failure for not being strong and defiant in the face of his rejection.

She pushed her way out the other door, wondering if he watched her flight across the parking lot and hoping he at least paused in his talking to watch her go by.
She wondered if he missed her. If he ever thought about her. If he wished things had been different. Wished he had done more.
A frown creased her brow and she thought, no. He did not think of her at all.

Her phone rang and she looked at it as she came to stand next to her car. A thrill went through her as she saw he was calling her.
She turned to look to where he was before and he was there, walking toward her with the phone to his ear.

She answered. "Hello"

"Hi stranger." He said as he walked towards her.
"You went by so fast I did not get a chance to say hello."

"Sorry...was in a hurry." She stammered and soon he was standing before her.
He clicked his phone off and smiled at her.

She lowered her phone, watching him warily. She did not want to play this game anymore. She did not want to be around this person who made her feel so out of control.

"Hey....you alright? You look scared." he said softly and he stepped forward with concern in his beautiful eyes.

"I am ok....." she said softly and cast her eyes to the ground.

She hated this feeling. She felt as if she was just some dumb girl who could not put a coherent sentence together. Good Goddess, she bet he thought she was an idiot.

"You are not ok." he said softer as he stepped closer and touched her cheek with his finger.

She jumped back as if shocked and her eyes flew to his.
He looked at her stunned and then said, with some annoyance.

"Really? What he hell is wrong?"

A hot anger washed through her and her green eyes darkened to a point where he shifted nervously. She sighed and then resigned herself to just saying what the hell was on her mind for at this point it really did not matter what he thought of her. He had already walked away from her and why he was here was any body's guess.
Let's say it how it is, let's be a bold ass like he is.
She lifted her chin and said.

"I've never been scared of someone before. A little intimidated maybe, but never scared. But you, you scare me with your beautiful eyes and amazing smile. I'm so scared that I'll want to love you forever."

His eyes went wide at her words but he did not say a word, just watched her with an unreadable expression on his face.

She sighed with resignation and turned away. Clicking open the car door she shook her head.
Yeah, made a complete fool of herself but at least she had the courage to say something. She dropped her stuff on her seat and froze when she felt his hands slide over her arms.

"Look at me please." he said softly.

She took a deep breath, her heart was not pounding anymore, she had run out of strength for this. She felt like the worlds biggest fool.
She turned to look up into those hypnotizing eyes and she just wanted to lose herself in their dark depths. Her breath caught in her throat at the tenderness she saw there.

"Very well said. I could not have said it better, but then you are the writer and I expect such grand things from you." he said with a small smile that took her breath away.
She remained mute just looking up at him.

"First....I am sorry about everything...second...let's go talk and get this sorted out. I know there is a lot to say and perhaps....it's time we got it all out in the open. Honestly."

His hand came up to push an errant tendril of hair that the breeze slid over her cheek. The feel of his fingers on her skin sent shivers throughout her soul.

Should she go and talk?
Would it change anything?

He seemed to sense her hesitation and without a warning he pulled her into his arms. His lips claimed hers in a hot kiss that sent her over the edge of her control.
Her arms snaked around his neck and her body pressed to his.
Her world went reeling away and nothing remained but this feeling. This amazing feeling that sent goose bumps over her skin and tingling within all parts of her body.
He did this to her. Made her lose control.
She loved it. She loved him.

Maybe he cared for her after all? Maybe this was more of the same game.

She did not know and in this moment she did not care for all she wished to do was sink in the revelation that was him. Her mind reeled with the possibilities and hope.

But she was still scared.